Currently still breaking out in hivesssss
so lately i've been feeling depressed. i guess you could say it's due to many things, but most importantly, i think smoking all the weed & drinking the other day just fucked shit up. they are depressants after all... whatever. On another note, lately i feel as though i don't even have a boyfriend. the guy doesn't even have TIME to spend with me. When i say me, i mean, not with a crapload of his other friends. WHICH ACTUALLY, i don't mind doing, but it's the fact that WE (me&him) don't even do our own thing anymore. How can he not have time for me, when he doesn't even have to do anything? i'm the fucking busy one. & when we're supposed to get together to do something, he lags like there's no tomorrow.

i just want a guy who could lift me off my feet =) ...like surprise me now & then (not necessarily with material things), or even just take me OUT on an actual date. everytime we meet up its like, "so what do you want to do?".... "i don't know, you pick..."... ugh!! drives me nuts. i'm a girl, & i need some fucking romance in my life!!! fuck myLIFE. fuckYOU mister HIVES... lets out a big sigh.