Currently listening to Keri Hilson - Knocks You Down
tonight was the first night he raised his voice & swore at me since we got back together a month ago. it was pure deja vu & it brought me back to the time when he didn't care & practically hated me. how will i have the confidence to go on with this relationship? It's as though it's happening all over again slowly.

it hurts as fck. i just need not to care as much anymore. it's simple.. besides, i have other things in life that i need to work on right now. i can't just focus on being with HIM. i can't be knocked down by love again... i need to be more independent & stronger this time around.