Currently feeling so disappointed & can't stop crying...
so i was supposed to go to this cottage trip with some friends, including him, and we've been waiting for it. i've been working non-stop and finally managed to book the four days off which starts today. i even paid for the trip already. i booked off the 5 shifts that were supposed to be mine, when i could have been working and made 400$ ...turns out that yesterday he picked a fight with me so i was in a TERRIBLE mood going into work. not only that i got cussed at from the owner of my workplace, and i was in a TERRIBLE mood.. and him, he doesn't even do anything to make things better for me. never. the best he can do is text me, or call me. and only once, he can't even manage several times to try to call me. makes me have a hunch that he didnt want me to go on the cottage trip, so he fucking wanted to get on my bad side. anyway, he didnt want me to go to begin with right?

i honestly can't stress how upset i feel right now. they're already on their way right now while i'm sulking at home & i haven't stopped crying for a good 2ish hours. he never puts me first, while i always place him before anything else. he treats me like garbage... literally. so i texted him an hour ago telling him how i felt. he hasn't texted back... not like i like it when he texts me anyway. why cant he just fucking say it to my face? my long weekend is ruined, and i never want to talk to him again. i lost money & i feel like i'm at my worst. if he's going to pick his friends over me, then fine. i dont need him in my life anymore..