Currently still crying her eyes out
im so fucking mad. it's like i don't even have a boyfriend. i broke out with a fever, and he doesnt even fucking do shit. im so ill & its like no one fucking cares. but this world IS selfish. & he has the decency to even yell at me. fuck that shit. & he just fucking leaves. fuck that shit. do i need to fucking take all of this? NO. if he's going to be there for all the good times, and not for all my bad times, then he's not fucking worth it, cause he's just with me for the fun. not for the fucking bads. which brings up a topic for me. why does bad shit always have to fucking happen to me? i try my best to be optimistic about life, yet really, i should have no reason to be. i work so.. hard in life ...hoping that one day i'll get it all back, but there's never anything. & he doesn't even reply to my text. you know what? you've had enough of me?? well, i've had enough of you too. i just wanted someone to be there, & you can't even do THAT to satisfy my needs.

& let's top my miserable life off with my parents blasting the AC. i'm fucking freezing in my room. FUCKING so cold. ...i just truthfully want somebody to care...