Currently listening to: Neyo - Because of You (remix)
Lately i've really fucked up and am falling behind in school big time! So i've officially decided to drop OOP, that oh so dreaded course... As for the rest of my classes... INT is my specialty, so i technically don't even have to try in that class and i'll still do pretty good.. DBS is SORT of common sense, so i just need to start doing my work.. and as for IBC, the most boring, most retarded of the classes... I HATE YOU! sigh...

lately, i've been getting chubbier as well. Although, that could possibly be due to my bloated tummy that occurs during that time of the month. so lately i've been second guessing whether being attached is a good thing. it's always nice to have someone there for you, especially someone you love. HOWEVER, i feel as though my time is now more limited, and now i have lesser time to do what i like to do. maybe i'm just going through a phase, we'll see!

Currently listening to Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone
Been feeling really confused lately. I don't know whether or not i love him enough to take the fact that all he does is drink, blaze, and hang around the streets in the middle of the night doing nothing & coming home in the morning. I effing hate it, and i'm sure any girl would hate it, not just me. I love him, but i dont think i could take in all his bad qualities as well. Why can't he be more efficient and do something with his life. Why can't he just be a NORMAL person. I dont care if he goes out a lot, if he's playing basketball or going to the gym, or.. doing SOMETHING of the sort.

I don't know where i stand anymore in this situation. So i've turned my phone off for a few days already. I don't really want to talk to him, and surprisingly i'm pretty happy NOT talking to him. who knows, maybe i'll be more efficient this way as well. confused as effing ever! what to do..

Currently feeling semi-content & scareded off
so i had to change the name of my blog around just now, because i realized i had a freak stalker. there really are some scary people in this society. or some sickening people, should i say.

haven't been working on schoolwork ever since the summer semester started. will definitely start tomorrow! was going to tonight, clearly that didn't happen. haven't been attending classes regularly neither. the weather is telling me to stay outside & skip my classes. OH, what horrible influence you are to me! am currently back with him. taking it slow. still semi-single && effing loving it. no! i'm not a friend with benefits sort of girl, but YES, i do need love too! (at the same time ofcourse, keeping my options open is never a bad thing, harhar)... ;)))